Posted by FatPooper on September 02, 2010 at 21:21 [24.218.58.254]
In Reply to: Re: Update posted by Alyssa on August 27, 2010 at 13:33
I can say that as a pooper, the positive emotional response I get is the biggest reason I enjoy it. I definitely love the physical sensation, and frankly the smell is fantastic to me, but I think a lot of what drives that is the emotional excitement. For me, I was a bed wetter very late due to a small bladder. While this was not a happy experience for me, it was also something I accepted on some level and it opened the door for a curiosity with pooping that I explored around the time I stopped wetting the bed. It fascinated me right from the start and I always approached it from that sort of very open minded place. Its never even been about sex so much as just enjoying it in its entirety.
It'd be easy to tell you to just do what you want, but you clearly enjoy the idea of pleasing your boyfriend and that's perfectly valid. If that provides you with an emotional incentive, that it can be something enjoyable for you. Just try to be honest with yourself. You've done FAR more than most already and if ultimately you aren't interested in this, that's entirely fair.
As to cleaning up, while I don't find it disgusting, that is the one part where I feel the most emotional shame involved. I try to exclusively mess when I feel a fairly firm poop coming, which helps. Often I can drop it out of my underwear into the toilet quite easily. I don't squish much, though, which obviously complicates things. Just remember that the shower is your friend and so is a clear drain so try to run some draino first to ensure safe passage. First thing to do in the shower is rinse off your behind and let all of the poop go down the drain. I try to rinse until the water at my feet is running clear. Sometimes I need to work out any clogged shit with my feet. Yeah, this isn't fun, but do it first and get all of that out of the way before worrying about cleaning yourself up.
A common feeling many of us have is that you still smell after you've showered. the best general guess is that this is mostly mental or at the most something very subtle we are more attuned to after sitting with the smell for a time. Still, for peace of mind, try washing your hands after the shower with different soap. Maybe a third time, too.
Good luck with your boyfriend.
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