Posted by Lloyd on December 15, 1998 at 14:35
In Reply to: The Birth of a Desperation Lover posted by Bridget Fidget on December 14, 1998 at 17:20
Hi, Bridget Fidget! Loved your story! You're very analytical, aren't you? I like that. While I have all my life loved peeing my pants for the naughty erotic aspects, I have often experimented with holding and desperation. For me, the desperation is still linked to wetting, but I've learnt to balance the one against the other. My technique is to hold onto whatever is in my bladder at the point where I decide to start, and drink enough to quickly get to the point where I am full, without getting too desperate just yet, and then hold it. If I drink very little through the rest of the day, depending of course on climate, I can keep a full bladder without having to let go more than just a little occasionally. There have been days when I have done this all day, and not had to leak even a drop into my pants! On days like this, though, I like to push myself over the edge by drinking the occasional glass of water or cup of tea (depending again on climate and mood) and then I can manage to leak in little squirts every so often, without really wetting my pants, while keeping my desperation at just the right level.
Strangely, though, the desperation itself is nothing to me unless there is the occasional leak. When I feel it building to the point where I will just have to let a squirt go, and then I relish every second of it, the realisation that I'm bursting and going to have to let go some urine, the relaxation that immediately precedes the release, the instant the urine escapes and the temptation to bear down and urinate HARD into my pants, the cutoff that actually squirts the urine into the material of my pants, the wave of urgency that immediately follows the cutoff, the attempt to resist the recurring urge to just give in and push, the occasional second squirt as I DO momentarily give in to the urge, then back to holding it again. This can go on for ages, but there always eventually comes the time when I give in to the urge for another squirt, then another, and another, and then finally, having wet my pants to the point where the urge to pee them hard outweighs the wish to hold it further and I finally let go entirely and bear down to push as much pee into my pants as I can in as short a time as possible, usually regardless of where I am. If I am out and about, it is usually only the fact that I'm in public that will curb the urge, and even then, maybe not. But if I'm at home, there's no chance - I just pee and pee and pee and saturate me, my pants, the floor, anything I'm sitting on. At the moment, I have to live in a hotel due to the nature of my work, and so I have to be really careful. I also like holding it when I'm in bed, and enjoy working the desperation and leaking into masturbation, which I do from preference in my underpants, but I have to be really careful. I'm not into peeing hotel beds, floors, etc, but I have been caught more than once, partially soaking a bed when my leaking got the better of me and I couldn't resist the urge to leak a bit more then a bit more, then let go and pee, just for a second, but then another and another, until I'm just peeing hard through my pants and onto the sheets. It's then only the most supreme effort of will with which I stop, shut off the flow, masturbate in my wetness with a still full bladder, then quickly get up and try to clean up with hand towels, etc. The experience is wonderful, but the cleanup afterwards is a problem for me.
To this day, I still play holdit, and sit in desperation at home, at work, in the train (Tube) and walking around. I will leak squirts in any of these places, and it has been the source of some amazement for a few close female friends that I have been able to instantly demonstrate for them my ability to pee at will in absolutely any clothing, whether it be jeans, shorts, suit, dinner suit, or swimsuit. I can do it anytime, anywhere, and do so if I can get away with it, but it's always because I have a full bladder and always desperate to pee.
You are in good company. I for one would love to hear your stories. Don't be shy. I myself would love to hear you recount the times when you have partially and/or repeatedly wet from deliberate releases when you were desperate, and how it felt. But I'm sure that anything you have to tell us will be just as wonderful as your introduction.
Welcome, Bridget Fidget. Come and join us.
Cheers,
Lloyd.
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