It all started when I was young. My mother always used to say that if I was constipated, and couldn't go when I was sitting on the toilet, if the urge came at another time for real, then it was ok to do it in my panties! It didn't help either that initially I was a bit afraid of the toilet when I was really little, and maybe that made it harder to go. But either way I actually had permission to poop in my panties!

I did find it was a lot easier to go in my panties. Even when I could feel the poop needing to come, often it just wouldn't when I was on the toilet, but later I could just easily let it out in my panties instead. And I started to get used to doing it like that, and even started to like it! I actually liked the feeling of pooping myself, and I always had the excuse that I was constipated. So you've probably guessed that I started pooping myself even when I wasn't constipated. I just sometimes felt like I wanted to and it gave me a really nice feeling.

As I got older, I knew the excuse I used for my mother wouldn't last forever, so eventually I had to start hiding what I was doing. And it was around that time that pooping myself started to make me horny, and I'd play with myself after making a dirty mess in my panties! Then I'd have to wash them in the sink in hot water, but for some reason I found I liked to put the still warm panties back on and masturbate some more. It was usually then, thinking about what I'd just done, thinking about how I'd pooped myself like a little girl, that I'd cum!

This morning however I was a bit late and getting ready to go to work, so thoughts like this were not initially on my mind. As I did my hair and makeup however, I could feel I needed to poop. It was there, ready and waiting, so I guessed I'd be able to do it in the toilet like a big girl. But then... it wouldn't come! I sat there and rubbed my tummy and bent over, but it wasn't happening. Dunno, maybe I just really didn't want to go to work.

As I was running late, I gave up and left the bathroom, but very soon after I felt the need again, but this time I knew I could go, but only if I did it in my panties. Suddenly the memories came flooding back, and I knew I wanted to do it. I crouched down and pushed, and with perfect ease I pooped myself! It wasn't a huge poop, but well enough to know I'd definitely messed myself, and straight away the tingling feeling in my pussy started to grow. I headed back to the bathroom to check out the mess - and I wanted to do more - and I wanted to touch it!

By then I couldn't keep my hand away from between my legs, and I started to rub myself. And then I wanted to do the thing where I washed my panties, put them back on and masturbated to orgasm. I knew I'd never make it to work if I did that, but the desire was too strong, so I decided to call in sick. So I rinsed out my panties with hot water and slid them back up my legs.

You can tell just from the look on my face at that moment how I felt, and my hand went straight for my clit. I stood there playing with myself, running naughty thoughts through my head... "I'm sorry Mommy, I was constipated!"