Posted by Leigh on April 03, 2006 at 00:15 [71.146.162.211]
In Reply to: Re: Stubborn Daddies posted by Daddy4Life on April 02, 2006 at 20:32
Daddy4Life it is so great to hear from you again! Sometimes it feels like the board changes around so much that old friends are lost. Do tell me how you've been! The last I heard you had a little one yourself. If that's still the case, how is she?
I love my BF so deeply. I thought over the internet daddy idea, but I can't bring myself to do it. It wouldn't feel right. I do have a crazy fun side - and he loves me for it, but an online relationship would just be too emotionally difficult.
I know that you're right when you say that I might just be 'pissing in the wind'. I've told him that I accept him for who he is, and he says he feels the same about me. Occasionally he tells me that I'm his baby, but once he realizes he's said it he almost wants to retract his statement. I had an emotional breakdown one night a little while back. My BF realized that he was acting like a father toward a little girl, and it freaked him out. I tried so hard to explain to him that it was ok and that's what I wanted. It was then that he decided not to be in control. I broke down and cried one of those deep emotional cries because I felt rejected. Ever since then it has been an uphill struggle.
Right now it is affectionate tolerance.
I have my nighttime routine where he puts me to bed, or he'll tolerate my little girl toys. Whenever I try to engage him in play (like a little girl would do when her very favorite daddy is spending time with her) he will go along with it, but not if I act like a little girl.
I don't want to have to choose between being a little girl and being with him. I guess that maybe I should be more consistant with being a little girl until he can really start to get the picture.
I can't tell you how nice it is to see such a familiar face. Take care!
Love