Posted by tisha on June 22, 2005 at 13:56 [71.115.221.160]
In Reply to: Re: Maybe You Just Need A better approach. posted by Mbob AKA. Philosophical Mbob on June 22, 2005 at 12:10
1. I know that.... it was something I have been struggling with for a while now. The idea of even looking at a diaper right now makes me angry that my daddy isn’t here to take care of me (you know.. the fictional one that i haven't found yet).
2. No.. the warmth most people on this board and many others is not just from wearing it. It is from wetting it. Look at the millions of ways people have signed things, they always refer to the wetness factor, not just the warm sensations. I might be frustrated and possibly pushing something im just not ready for yet, and maybe never will be, but im not ignorant. As for masturbation, im sorry but I get sexually aroused often, and with most fo the people that I asked why they liked diapers they gave me very very descriptive stories about Daddy changing a wet little girl and showing him how proud of her he was……. Those stories slam through my mind and bam! I can’t help it, so please don’t dis me for it. Again I know full well that warmth from a diaper will come from it.
3. I know that it takes and adjustment period. I am trying to explore that now, though as I stated in my post I think i'm gonna chill on that for a while. I think that I can’t really positively explore it without a Daddy. The diaper itself, is not what I need it is that shared experience with another, that bond, that I need. Obviously I will not get that alone.
4. I can't stay in little headspace for more than a couple of hours. I have kids, 4 of them. After 10 pm is my time, anytime before that is simply something I can't play with, save for little things like sitting and watching a Disney movie, playing a game, or running around at the part with my kids. Of course they just see Mommy as totally into their world and cool as hell, but its still not the same. Someday I will have all kinds of time to myself to have more than just a few hours of headspace, until then, I make use with what I have avail.
5. I have mentioned the taboo factor of it because without a Daddy that seems to be the only thing there. *I* do not have some kind of reckless love infatuation with things taboo to the 'norms' of society. In fact if you really read most of my posts I have a really hard time with telling myself that it is okay to be little, to be vulnerable, or need someone in the first place. I am well versed in “deviant sexuality” and all the little kinks listed in that category of study. I have tried many of them, yes, but not for the taboo nature of, but to explore what I, personally, may or may not enjoy. How do you know if it is not your thing if you don’t take the time to try it, right (so long as it doesn’t go against any of your own personal morality).
6. That is what my post is all about in the first place. Walking through (for myself) my experience and trying to identify why I didn’t like it or why it didn’t work. Is it just not for me? Or do I need something else. Or … I could have sworn that is what I said at the end of it. *shrugs*
Please excuse my frustration over it. I am having a hard enough time on my own, it just feels like you are pointing your finger at me…….. especially when you begin it with addressing it to me as if it were a personal letter, then number it out like I am in trouble and you need to make a clear outline of each of your points, only to sum it all up with how *I* ended my own post in the first place, as if I had absolutely no clue and was totally oblivious to anything remotely logical or sound.
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