Posted by tisha on May 21, 2005 at 13:28 [4.4.78.235]
In Reply to: Re: Testing 123 *hehe* posted by A. on May 21, 2005 at 07:53
I dont need therapy... its not a role that I play. I can't just switch it on and off, I can't push it away and pretend its not there.
I don't want to be little to try and resolve anything.. it isn't much a choice, like being born a girl wasn't a choice.
I fight inside because i don't feel normal, i feel even more isolated in the universe when i am little than when i am in other headspaces. its scarey being vulnerable.
And... I do *need* sexual touches... just not at hello. Its very powerful for me, its amazing, but i dont want something amazing to be with any guy that just wants some kinky little play with a near stranger. Why is being selective a bad thing and siddenly dismissive as a completely different than it is.
I have been to that site and i dont get into roleplaying. I don't like the pretending to be part of some written roleplay family. If i wanted to write stories I would, without the need of other people playing outside roles for my creative escape. i kinds think that my stories are better than anything they can produce anyway (course i only ever really wrote two).. cuz they are in it for the fun of being in a role and i express what i need and want for myself in mine. (guess probably just i would think they are good..lol)
Being little isnt a creative escape. But i fight it a lot non-the-less becasue im afraid. since when is it not normal for a girl to be afraid?
i been told its a process to be okay with learning to express yoruself when you are little and even letting yourself *be* little and im trying very hard to work through that process.
Email: tisha8@gmail.com