Posted by Zorro Daddy on August 23, 2008 at 08:39 [69.248.57.15]
What is She Thinking About Now?
That question brings a smile to my face just thinking about it
When she opens her eyes in the morning, squinting from the sunlight, she sees you. A smile comes across her face… Why?
Maybe it was because you were the first thing that she wanted to see. Maybe it’s because you were in the dream she just woke up from. Or the sight of you made her happy.
When you hold her in your arms, across your lap, she gazes up at you with a look of concentration on her face. She’s not looking at your eyes. Instead, she traces your face, your eyes, your cheeks, your lips with her fingers. She sticks her finger in your hair and twirls it. And the touch of her fingertips to your face is so gentle and so caressing, you may wonder why she’s doing it.
Perhaps she is affected by touch. And what your face feels like is a question in her mind. So the look of concentration on her face is wanting to know. So she decides to find out.
So you sit there holding her for a minute as she feels the morning scruff on your chin, and then you lean in and rub noses with her. She wriggles up her while laughing and tossing her head back and forth to avoid your “butterflies”. As she does this, you peck her, ever so lightly, on the neck. She scrunches up her shoulders to try to stop the kisses, still laughing at what you’re doing. It’s obvious why she’s doing all of that. It tickles, but she’s not really trying to stop you. It’s intimate attention, and a lot of fun, even if she’s a BabyGirl who is ticklish on practically 90 percent of her body.
And now she lays back into your arms. You remove her pacifier and insert a bottle of milk. Instantaneously, she goes from giddy to calm. As she rests her head on your chest, now her eyes look up at you with a “grin” to them. She clutches the teddy bear in her arms tightly. She never stops smiling at you until the milk begins to take its effect on her. She nestles her face closer to your chest, and closes her eyes. How comfortable she must be. But what is she thinking about now?
Maybe she feels so safe and protected in your arms that she can drift off to sleep because she knows you will take care of her, and you will keep her safe. Or it could be that she’s just simply tired. Either way, it’s a sweet sight to see her curl up in your lap and fall asleep. It makes you feel so loved that you would almost shed a tear if a typical male impulse to not cry didn’t take over and force you to stop.
And that moment, the very instant that she falls asleep, you see her face relax. If you have taken time to study her face and to study how she moves and reacts, you will know exactly what to do at that second. If she likes to sprawl out to get comfortable to sleep, she will do it subconsciously when she drifts off. If she likes to fall asleep on her tummy, she will want to do that, and if you are prepared to give her that comfort without losing her “pillow and mattress” (which is YOU! lol), you will be able to gently lay yourself down on the couch while never disturbing her and never moving her off your chest. It’s a challenge of sorts, but one that every guy longs to take up.
When everything is so quiet, and she is very peacefully asleep, now the little things will begin to make an even bigger impact:
-Routinely brushing the bangs (that keep falling down on her face) back up out of her eyes.
- Keeping a hand on her back, and an eye on the teddy bear, the pacifier
- Knowing the position of her legs, especially if they’re bent (so you don’t get accidentally knee-d in the crotch.)
- The necessity the run your finger through her hair and kiss her on the forehead; a delicate reminder that you are still there.
Perhaps, ultimately:
- Recognizing that she really needs to sleep in a bed.
So you position one hand on her diapered bottom and the other still on her back, and you slowly sit up and stand up. All the while, you never disturb her. You carry her back to the nursery. And throughout all of this you don’t wonder what she’s thinking about. You wonder what she’s dreaming about.
You place her in her crib amongst a “sea” of soft blankets and stuffed animals and whatever else she likes to sleep with. You take pleasure in knowing that she is still so quiet and serene because she feels safe. You gently lay her on her tummy, and she “stirs to” for a moment but it’s okay because you have the “teddy bear and pacifier” trick to fall back on. She opens her eyes, and you reinsert the pacifier in her lips at the same time that you press the teddy bear against her shoulder. She takes the pacifier in her mouth and hugs the teddy bear, and just like that, she falls asleep again. You cover her with a blanket, and now she is surrounded by softness. The room is quiet. She has her stuffed animals, and feels warm. She also feels loved and her emotions are satisfied, so she’s not looking to be comforted. Instead, she sleeps.
And you still don’t know what she’s thinking about or dreaming about! But you do know that you have a bond with her that is so strong it can't be broken by anything. She loves to feel "little", and craves your hands and your way of caring for her more than anything....possibly even more than chocolate.
She has a love for being a baby, for being placed in a diaper, and loved with all your heart, soul, mind, passion, and yes…you will eventually shed a tear or two.
The belief that we can’t figure out girls only exists because we probably haven’t taken the time to appeal to their emotions. Do I know what she’s think? More often than not, Yes…I would. But I’d just be guessing some of the time, too. And that’s okay. Because I’m still learning about her.
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