Posted by Zorro Daddy on March 22, 2008 at 00:18 [68.82.210.202]
While sending someone an email just a moment ago, a thought crossed my mind that was so plain and straight forward simple, that it literally stopped me in what I was typing. (If that can make any sense at all.)
I've spent time on the internet for many years now searching for a girl I met in my childhood. Along the way, I've discovered what it is about infantilism that really attracts me to it.
I've had such vivid thoughts about infantilism that I decided to type them out and post them...partially because I wanted to see if anyone else felt the same way, and partially to separate myself from a stereotype that a lot of ABDL-minded guys get grouped into. Like many others, I'm not obsessed, crude, nor am I without charm and decent honest respect. My writings have been geared to make that known.
For as much as I long to find that girl from my childhood, and for as much as I seek to find a girl who shares in the interest as I do, I have overlooked the most simplest thought of all. I am content with the possibility of never finding a Female DL SoulMate because it is as much of a reality as is finding her. But up until a moment ago, I never paused to think that...
The ABDL-minded girl (whom I am a match for) may not actually exist at all!
I've always appreciated everything in moderation. So 24/7 was out of the picture.
I cherish it to be something so precious I'll never reveal it to my friends & family. "Public anything" is out of the question.
AB is great, but I'm not always geared up to the work. So DL with AB curiosity is the only way that works.
People are complex enough by nature anyway. A Sweet, Simple, and Shy Personality is the girl for me.
The nurturing role of a caregiver is a concept that I crave to be. So playing roles isn't nearly as important to me as feeling the roles naturally.
No two humans are the same, but seeing eye-to-eye on the right things is essential to any bond or relationship. So we have to have more in common than we have in difference. And we have to be able to accept what we disagree on.
I've spoken with a few AB/DL girls, and chatted/emailed with quite a few. I make it a policy to not discuss details about anyone I've spoken to with anyone else. I value each ABDL girl that I've communicated with as a wholesome, decent girl whom I would never talk to anyone else about.
Though they were all truly wonderful, after a while it became clear that we weren't a match that would work ... whether it was a discovery that "she" made of us, or I made of us. In the end, we ended communication.
It's fun to run into them every now and again. Or accidentally bumping into them on tribe.net (LOL ;). Regardless of the reality, I don't suppose I'll ever stop looking for her, but maybe, just maybe, she doesn't really exist at all.
But the search always continues…
Zorro
Email: zorroabdaddy@yahoo.com
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