Posted by pants on May 22, 2008 at 00:27 [122.110.81.242]
The following is an excerpt from an email I sent to pantiespooper. After I wrote it I realised that it had very little applicability to her that wasn't common to what I would wish to communicate to everyone here. Therefore, I address it to the board:
Hey, haven't heard from you in a fair while. I've been logging on to wetset a lot lately, I think I do it compulsively when I'm stressed - it's an effective distractor and it calms me down, though it's probably a bit of a vicious cycle. I can do it too much, become a bit obsessed and removed from the outside world and my real life problems. The vicious part is ignoring those problems and not solving them very well. Also creating new problems from being so removed. I might as well wear a sign around my neck that says "away in the non-existent realm of my poop fantasia, be back in...(???)" heh. But yeah, here I am, none the less.
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I guess I'm just a bit affected by how vague all this wetset nonsense is. As an alternate reality, it's not very real, which isn't good for my mental health (or the mental health of anyone who periodically uses wetset the way I do). There's nothing concrete, no personal details, just a bunch of heavily veiled personalities, even sometimes completely contrived personalities, appearing in text under pseudonyms. We're all so secretive as to be barely existent at all. I know that serves a purpose, but it also has major disadvantages, most dissatisfying ones. I'm tired of my absence from my real life being a total vanishing act. When I go to wetset I don't intend to vanish, I simply want BE somewhere else. Somewhere meaningful. But 'I' don't really go anywhere. Pants does. And there isn't very much to pants. He's nothing but a glimmer of a real person. Unaccountable yes, but completely ineffective, and totally unsatisfied (well, almost).
I guess what I'm saying is this: As a place to go and just be yourself, wetset is sorry choice. And yet, that's where a few of us really feel most understood, most accepted, comfortable and free. It's ludicrous. A tragic paradox.
lonely in company,
Pants
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these are just some expressions of feeling and thought. Not of faith or truth. But I'd love to hear people's responses to them.