Posted by Grind on January 20, 2004 at 13:30 [67.20.95.70]
After lurking here since I was 15, I'm 18.. almost 19 now, I felt it was time to make a post, especially since I came up with a few things that some here may find of interest.
I'm male, as I said 18 years old, living on the west coast of North America, in what country or state you'll probably never know, as about this I am rather private.
For about a year and a half, I took part in this fetish nearly ever day, when left home alone I'd cut up garbage bags and make a pair of plastic pants from them, fill them and disgard them usually in a rather clever way as not to get caught. Contrary to what I see here, I rarely ever smooshed the mess or sat down in it, as the cleanup was always rather painful, and after I'd masturbated myself to an orgasm I'd usually be feeling quite silly about partaking. Anyhow, this slowed down quite a bit after I got laid for the first time, but a few months after that I started to suffer from chronic constipation.
The first time I ever had an orgasm was sitting on the toilet, I didn't so much masturbate as press on my genitals until I came, I can't remember exactly when or why this happened, but I imagine I was in the neighborhood of 10 years old. Obviously enough I took to doing this frequently, I didn't discover nor was I interested in regular masturbation (or girls mind you) until I turned 14, and I think that somewhere along the line there, my mind labeled the act of having a BM a sexual thing. This is probably why I developed the fetish.
Anyhow, I developed constipation to a pretty grotesque point, my record for not having a BM is a little over 8 weeks. I sometimes think that the fetish may be the blame, as I said my mind seemed to have labeled going to the bathroom a sexual thing, so I had to be "in the mood" to do so, which resulted in a pretty desperate psychological and physical problem that I only got over a few months ago, it lasted almost exactly a year.
But it all seems to have gone away thankfully, and I partook again today.
Also of interest, my namesake is because I'm into death metal, deathgrind, that sort of music, which has developed into a sparse sub culture which interestingly enough approves of scat porn, although this is likely only to make it as offensive as possible. The gross and disgusting and politically incorrect. Despite this I'm not keen on making this part of my life public because of the infantile nature of the act, if I were to be taking a shit on a girl's chest or something, that's another story.
Speaking of which, in the past month the girl I'm dating has gotten rather bold with public urinating, possibly because it makes her more death metal, and likely because of how frequently she drinks. I doubt she'd ever be interested in anything to do with BMs, but that at least is promising of something nearly as good.