Posted by gertrude on November 11, 2005 at 03:54 [66.28.235.62]
In Reply to: Re: split personalities so to speak....thank you!! posted by gertrude on November 11, 2005 at 03:30
Specifically, what triggered this was that I actually (blush blush blush) wet myself for the first time ever in front of someone. I have fantasized about doing that for years without really understanding why. The light bulb has gone off in that for me needing someone else to clean me up makes me more vulnerable than anything else I could think of and that's probably why my incredible urge to pee disappeared the minute I tried to do it front of him. Literally it took an hour and a half I think. It's as though my psyche has pinpointed the one thing that could truly make me feel vulnerable to another person and that over the years has become what I have fantasized about which makes perfect sense but does leave me in a bit of a pickle. Or as you so aptly put it, it sends the more dominant side of my personality who really isn't afraid of anything even when she should be. This in turn makes me better at my work-surprise surprise
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