I am a female approaching my late 20’s and recently regressed into being a bed-wetter again. Which I will tell you about but first I would like to give you a little back ground about me.
I was a nightly wetter until I was almost eight. From their till around the age 10 I had at most two dry nights a week. After that I started having more and more dry nights by 13 I was down to being wet at two or three times a week. By the age of 15 it was about 6 times a month. B y the time I was 18 I was wetting once a month at most. It was at this time I went off to college and my freshman year I only twice in each semester. I didn’t wet at all when I was home fore the summer. My sophomore year I wet once in the first semester. This right in the middle of the semester I remember because I had an exam that day. The second semester I was only wet twice once at the very beginning and once at the very end. I did wet once during that summer. In my junior year I was twice in the first semester and once in the second. I did not have any wettings that summer. In my senior year I wet once the very beginning of the semester and that was the last time I wet until recently.
A couple of other things as a child I had rubber sheet on my bed, which was there until I left for college. My bedwetting while embarrassing was not a guarded secret. In fact my mother discussed it openly with many relatives and family friends. I was never chastised punished or berated it was just humiliating to have what seemed like the whole world know I wet the bed. Also On more nights and mornings then I count I would wake up absolutely desperate to pee. I never didn’t make except for a dribble or two though
Now to the part of how I became a bed wetter again. A while ago I was in an accident and severely injured my back. For this I had a special brace I had to wear to bed. Now I could stand in this or lay down in it but I could not sit in it.
The first night I wore it I woke around 3:00 and had to pee very badly. I struggled to take the brace off so I could use the bathroom but I didn’t make it and I completely soaked my bed. When I finally got the brace off I changed the sheets and tried to dry my mattress, but as I remembered from college an unprotected mattress is very hard to dry. In college I used to use my hair dryer, But I was unable to do that hear as it was complete agony to bend over.
The next day I decided I should get a rubber sheet for my bed. I figured when I bought it they would think it was for child. This exactly what the guy at the store thought in fact this gut thinks I have a six year old bedwetting son who also occasionally has daytime accidents as well. He started asking questions and the lies just “flowed” from my mouth.
The next morning I woke up with my alarm and I was desperate but not that desperate to pee. Then as I started undoing the brace I developed an intense urge to pee. Just as I undid the last piece of the brace I lost it and soaked what was now a protected mattress. My golden liquid spread over almost all the bed. I didn’t realize how bad this was as I was getting up any way. It was three nights later, I had managed just fine the next two, I woke up in the middle of the night, and before I could get the brace off I soaked the bed. I was not able to get comfortable, as there was not enough dry space for me to lie on.
It was at this point I decided to go with diapers until I didn’t need to wear the brace any more. I drove to store 45 minutes away and wore dark glasses and a hood I was so embarrassed to be buying these. The first night I wore these, I took the rubber sheet off the bed. I woke up and was able to get the brace off I took the diaper off without incident. When I took the diaper off I wrecked it and it could not be re-used. At first I thought I had wasted my money and I almost didn’t wear it the next night. I t was good thing I did as I woke up during the night and was not able to get the brace off in time and let a full bladder into the diaper. I re-did the brace and went back to sleep. When I woke up in the morning the diaper seemed heavy but not wet but a tad damp. Over the next couple of weeks I used the diapers more often then not. Some times it was during the night, and sometimes it was in the morning. On the mornings when I removed the brace I was never able to salvage the diaper.
This is when things started to get weird. On mornings I stopped trying to get the brace off and figured why waste the diaper. Then during the night if woke up to pee I would just use the diaper, ant even bother to try to get to the bathroom. I remember this one morning clearly and vividly I woke up and the diaper had that heavy damp feeling. I had no memory of waking up and peeing. The next night I woke up but barely and without even thing about it I peed. I decided to try to get to the bathroom again from now on. However this would not happen. On the next morning I woke and I had wet the diaper with no memory of waking up during the night. The next two nights I remember waking up and saying to myself take off the brace and use the bathroom. This did not happen. This was the last time I remember waking up. From then on I was always wet.
It was at this time the Doctor said my back was not healing like it should and I should have surgery. I was in the hospital for five nights and was too humiliated at to ask for diapers. So on the first night I didn’t. This was the night before the surgery. I wasn’t sure what I was thinking I woke up in the very early on the morning in a completely soaked bed. The head nurse who was quite a large nasty middle-aged women, was extremely angry saying “you know we have diapers this is a hospital there is nothing to be embarrassed about, there is nothing we haven’t seen before”. The next night I was still groggy from the anesthesia, and she walked in with a diaper and said put this on throwing it on my bed. I protested, and said no. She said either you put it on or I’ll put in for you. I tried to grab it as it would really humiliating to have somebody else diaper me. I however was still to week, to really move. With that she drew the curtain closed, threw my hospital gown up and lifted my legs and affixed the diaper. She said, "I’ll be back in a few hours to see if you need to be changed." I fell asleep and the next thing I new she was their again and felt the diaper to see if it was wet and it was I tried to pretend to be asleep but she knew I was awake and said in a rather stern fashion can you do this or do you want me to. I said I would do it, but she wouldn’t leave claiming to want to make sure I actually put it on. I went back to sleep and when I awoke the diaper was again wet. While in the hospital I was wetting twice a night. At first I thought I was doing this all along and it was just that diaper held it.
When I returned from the hospital I realized this twice a night thing was a new occurrence. As I would wake up in the morning and the diaper felt clammy. And I even had over flowed it a bit. My doctor asked me about the bed wetting when I saw him and said he could refer me to urologist. I said that wouldn’t be necessary as it has hasn’t happened since. I am reasonably certain he knew I was lying, but just said if happens again he could refer me again. I now have a rubber sheet on my bed and wear diapers, as the diaper usually doesn’t hold it all.
I came across this board by accident as I was looking for anonymous support groups. When I read a story about a women masturbating in a wet diaper I became intrigued. I t took me along time to work up the nerve, but I finally did it. Now almost every morning I give myself orgasms in my wet diaper. I now even sometimes don’t wear the diaper to bed and finger and rub myself while laying in my pee soaked sheets.
I recently have had a couple of dry nights not many but a few. On the nights I have diaper I use it immediately, and I masturbate with intense fury. It somehow seems naughty to use a diaper deliberately. Only once did I wake up dry with out a diaper, and I was not able to bring myself to wet the bed deliberately.
I hope to wean myself off diapers entirely but it is difficult to sleep comfortable in a bed that is completely pee soaked. But I am working on it.
I also have thought about using a diaper in public but still don’t have the nerve. If I dip that can an “accident” without a diaper be far behind.
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